I just wanted to share with you some issues i am facing with this blog.
#2. I am unable to access my wordpress site through normal means for some odd reason. Everyone else can access it but me. The only way I am able to post this update right now is by going through a VPN program. Which is very much tedious and a big hassle.
#3. I keep getting a lot of hate mail because of my website name. THINSPIRATIONAL JOURNEY, Just because there is the term “THINSPO” in it doesn’t mean I am glorifying starvation or promoting self harm through eating disorders and such.
Let me tell you a brief history about this blog.
Yes, I started out as an eating disordered blog. When I decided to lose weight I had no knowledge, no idea on how i was supposed to be done so i ran to the internet and searched for ways to lose weight and of course there was a plethora of Thinspo sites which were very appealing. Thigh gaps, flat tummies, prominent hip and collar bones. It was media’s ideal of beauty, and being the young adult I was who didn’t know better I was easily influenced and motivated and even inspired by it all. There was no one there to guide me since I was basically all alone and depressed during those “darker” times.
I started a blog and decided to record everything just for myself.
As time passed by I did develop an eating disorder which I DENIED to those who told me I had. Though I was losing weight I was unhappy and my life was a roller coaster. I starved myself, and when I did eat food I would vomit it all out because i’d feel bad about myself. Then it developed into a Starve– binge-puke cycle which was really bad.
I logged everything on to my blog, I would post photos and such and then I would take some tips and share articles that I found useful.
As time flew by, I was little by little introduced to a healthier lifestyle. At first girls with muscles scared the shit out of me because it didn’t fit my twisted ideals of skinny and dainty. But my views changed little by little. My eyes started to open up to my destructive ways until I found a certain Pilates instructor online who was such a positive motivation to me.
Her name is Cassey Ho from Blogilates. I admired her quirky and fun attitude towards fitness. It dawned on me that there is a much better and a happier lifestyle than starving and binging- and throwing up (lather-rinse-repeat).
So I changed my life around. I started to eat healthier and even became vegetarian. I started exercising more than 3 times a week and then one day I saw her post about joining a bikini competition and I was so amazed by her story of dedication and commitment so that was the time I decided I wanted to train insane. Lift heavy. and all that.
So right now I am training for a bikini competition for next year. (better start early).
- I promote eating 6 small healthy meals a day with balance portions.
- I promote exercising at least 30-60minutes a day
- I try to come up with easy challenges that my readers can do every month (though I can’t do this regularly because I also have other things to do but I try really hard)
- My lines are always open to talk to those girls who are suffering through E.D.s and want to make a change in their life just like I did.
- I promote healthy and happy living.
But why keep the blog THINSPIRATIONAL JOURNEY?
Think about it. Girls who are looking for “THINSPO” will stumble to my site and see that there is a life beyond disordered eating. There is a happier and healthier lifestyle. So i like to think and put out to the world that my blog is more like a wolf in sheep’s clothing (in a good way) I am a healthy blog disguised as a Thinspo blog so that I can and am able to reach out to those who might be searching for the wrong things online. At least when they land on my “THINSPIRATIONAL” site, they can see a more positive image and none of those THINSPO stuff that can ultimately destroy their lives.
So I think my readers can be the judge and the witnesses to what my blog is really about.
That being said.
I will now be shutting down Thinspirational Journey and moving it to a new home under a new name giving it a slightly new beginning.
But until the time that Thinspirational JOurney moves on I just wanted to thank all my readers and followers for being there and supporting me.
I hope you will support the new name I will have this blog under.